The Devil's Rose's blog

2006-11-17 7:11 p.m.

I Am a Lonely One, Too
Fallen Like the Sky

Flee today with me and we can hide
Until they want you
Where the strange creatures play
In mystic caves of strength,
Disassociate
Seal my fate, seal my, seal your...
Until they eat their own young

This is a lonely war tonight
And I'm forsaken
Are you a lonely one, too? OH
This is a lonely war tonight,
The soldier's waking
They were the lonely ones, too

Leave your stain
And love my wounds tonight
Leave like they all do
Where the strange creatures play
In this game so fake with a reprobate
Seal our fate, seal our, seal your
Until we eat our own young

This is a lonely war tonight
And I'm forsaken
Are you a lonely one, too? OH
This is a lonely war tonight,
The soldier's waking
They were the lonely ones, too

This is a lonely war tonight
And I'm forsaken
Are you a lonely one, too? OH
This is a lonely war tonight,
The soldier's waking
They were the lonely ones, too

This is a lonely war tonight
And I'm forsaken
Are you a lonely one, too?
Are you a lonely one, too?
The soldier's waking
Are you a lonely one, too?

Last night I got an instant message from one of my best friends, who, unbeknownst to her, is having the same anxieties I am.

College is turning out to be a lonely time for me. It's distressing, really.

I'm worried I'm going to shut myself away from everyone. It's been happening for a while. I just want to be alone with my music and the forest, maybe a notebook to write down whatever I'm moved to.

I haven't written in a journal but once since I arrived at the University. My scrapbook has suffered even more. I haven't even thought about the group's travelling journal unless someone brought it up.

"This is a lonely war tonight..."

I'm trying to fight the loneliness off.
I'm trying to be social.
I'm trying to be happy.
I'm trying.
I really am trying.

But I'm failing.

"This is a lonely war tonight...and I'm forsaken. Are you a lonely one, too?"

I know my best friend is. But that's cold comfort. Because, even when you're not alone in your loneliness, it's a very solitary feeling.

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About Me

I'm just an average 19 year-old girl from California, trying to figure out my place in the world. Madness and mayhem prevail in my existence as I navigate university life and try to figure out just what I want from myself. It's an interesting adventure. Want to know anything about me, just ask.

The Devil's Rose

Because I'm always curious where people get their screennames from, here's why mine's 'devils-rose': one of my favorite songs is called "Rose in the Devil's Garden" by Tiger Army. That's the main reason, that and my life can be quite hellish. So it just kind of worked for me.

The Least You Need to Know

I am: crazy; nineteen; female; random; deeply loyal to my friends; always looking to make more friends; something of a warrior, when the situation calls for it; good in emergencies; until they're over; temperamental; creative, artistic, and social; escaping an emotionally abusive childhood; determined to move to Europe; in a major university; studying Linguistics, Japanese, German, and Spanish; and...I don't know, lots of things. :D

Likes/Dislikes

I like: music, concerts, road trips, food, friendship, laughter, frolicking, walking in nature, writing novels and short stories, reading fiction - mostly fantasy, dancing in the rain, late nights, sleeping in, thunderstorms, ogling cute boys, playing at being a pirate, outrunning time, feeling infinite.
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I dislike: homework, waking up early, hot weather, people with no sense of humor, boredom, depression, being at home with my family.

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