2008-04-25 5:34 p.m.
It's My Life - and I'm Living on a Prayer
Been listening to Bon Jovi for some unknown reason. I don't even really like Bon Jovi, but it just works for me right now. At least, those two songs do.
Kinda makes me want to go on a road trip, when I listen to this stuff.
It also kind of reminds me of my home. My brother listens to all that 80's hair metal type stuff, when he's not listening to that growly death metal. And my mom was a fan of Bon Jovi in her younger days, and so I vaguely recall hearing "Living on a Prayer" when I was growing up. Growing up here having the operative meaning of "too young to be in school yet".
I took today off from my classes because my back is killing me. Freaking sciatica. I really should have gone to classes, since I've missed more sessions than I've attended in them, but there's not much I can do about it.
I'm in a really odd place mentally. Like, I feel so inspired - I have all these things I want to do. Parties to plan, art to make, books to write...
At the same time I am so completely and thoroughly lethargic that I'm pretty sure this period of inspiration is going to pass without me using any of it.
I kind of just want to curl up and take a nap in the patch of sun that's spilling across my bed at the moment. But I've been doing that a lot lately; I swear, I've been getting so much more sleep than I need. It's pretty bad.
It's not like I really need the sleep. I'm just sleeping because there's nothing else to do, and every hour I sleep away is one I don't have to sit through with my back hurting and all the people I care about 400 miles away.
God, I sound so fucking emo.
I apologize. :)
I've been walking around in kind of a daze lately. Headphones are good for that. Especially since it's springtime, and so whenever the music accelerates and gets all energetic and vibrant, taking on a life of its own, it just works with the environment as I'm walking around to make me feel like I'm in a dream or something.
Life's kind of in stasis right now, which is in an odd juxtaposition to the explosion of life around now that it's Spring; and holy jesus that is a big wasp outside my window.
I've been feeling very rebellious, but there's nothing to rebel against. And very bored, even though there's plenty to be doing.
I'm just a walking contradiction, I suppose. And with that, I'm off for a nap in the sun, to dream about summertime adventures and this really cute boy...
