2007-07-14 3:39 p.m.
AWOL
Oh, well. That's just life. I'll catch up on everyone else's journals when I have time.
I'm going to sound like a total nutcase if I type in what I'm truly thinking. But that's why this is anonymous, right? So I can say what I need to say, freely?
Well, here goes.
I have three best friends, but of the three, there's one who I've always been closer to. Not by much, but by enough. She's a Christian, and I'm a confirmed agnostic, but lately we've been having these freaky dreams about the end of the world and some sort of a role we have to play in it.
Sounds crazy, right?
It gets weirder. The end of the world doesn't have to happen. That's the impression we're both getting. It's not like Book of Revelations end of the world, more global warming end of the world in that respect, and our job is to postpone it.
I told you I'd sound bonkers. Even I think it's nuts. But you know how sometimes you feel like you know things even though they defy all rationality? This is kind of like that.
We don't really think the world will end, but we know that we have some sort of special purpose that we have to achieve.
She's always believed in reincarnation and stuff, which is why I mentioned that she's a Christian, because that isn't exactly common to Christian belief. And since I've been determined to remember what I forgot about childhood, we've been doing regression therapy...
Think hypnosis, but done by a shrink. Only, in our case, the shrink is on a CD and we help each other through it.
We're remembering things. Things we wouldn't know otherwise. Things we couldn't. I've been remembering my childhood, and realizing just why it is that my brain blacked it out on me. And those memories flow into other ones, ones where I'm in another place and time, and in anyone else I'd say it was an hallucination, but in my head, it feels like my memories do. Too much so for me to dismiss it out of hand, especially when my friend mentions seeing the same thing from a different angle before I can even tell her what I got.
It's just a bit disturbing. And now I'm thinking I may be losing my mind.
So that's where I've been all this time. Going crazy. I just hope I can stop the process. Back | Older | Current | Next
